Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Adopted

I was reading an old journal entry where one of the Barblings had asked me if I was a friend or family. I replied that I was a friend since I wasn't a blood relative, when their mom came in the room and corrected me saying that Barbling #1 wasn't a blood relative either (she's adopted) and she's family.

It's no secret that I would love to have a child of my own but during a conversation with a friend I confided that I was also afraid that if I did have my own child that all the other children in my life would feel they'd been replaced, and I would never want them to think that. I couldn't love a Barbling, et al any more if they were my very own.

This is how God, my Father, views me. "For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. For you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons by which we cry out,"Abba! Father!" The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God..." (Romans 8:14-16).

Some days, when I think of the children in my life I'm filled with such love my heart feels like it will explode. If anyone tried to do anything to hurt them I could easily become violently protective. I would run in to a burning building, jump in to a raging river, throw myself in front of a bullet for any and all of them.

Today I realized that my heavenly Father feels the same towards me. It was through Christ's death that I became a "blood" relative. I might be one of His billions of children, but He knows my name, remembers my birthday, etc. His heart fills to the point of explosion at the thought of me (!?!), and He threw Himself in to the line of fire for me.

...because family sticks together.

3 comments:

Gabrielle said...

I was talking to someone a while ago about guns. I was saying how I wasn't actually sure I could shoot someone even in self-defense. He said Yeah, but if someone was messing with the kids I'd have no difficulty. He was probably right. And if that's how my broken, fallen, sinful, finite love works I can't imagine the love of God our Father. One day Jesus is coming back and this screwed up world has been messing with His kids. That's frightening and comforting at the same time.

Adiel said...

That's a beautiful thought, Barb. And so true! If only I could believe it all the time.

Barb said...

I wish I could believe it all the time, too.