I know the definition and can parrot it off to anyone who wants to hear it. I've experienced grace first hand. But I don't understand it.
Rather than being thankful for the grace I'm given, I can't get past the guilt I suffer for having received it. Or the frustration I feel for being in the position of needing grace in the first place.
It seems to me that grace should make one free from feelings of guilt and frustration, but for me it only adds to my load.
However, at least I'm aware that I'm better off with grace than without it. But I'd still like to live a life free of guilt and frustration.